Hey guys, I just wanted to share an update with you about my weight. Back in May of 24, I shared a little story about my weight loss journey started in March of 24. I was down 13 pounds then, now in June of 25, it's a total of 70 pounds. I'm proud of myself, with 80 pounds left to drop, I will be at my goal weight of 150 pounds. I want to also add that although I am set for 150 to be my goal, I do want to lose maybe 20 more. I'm sure this is very what the heck news for you all, but I feel like someone out there is going to say to themselves, if she did it, I can do it too. Remembering that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).

The one thing we need now in these days is truth and transparency. Something I've always been able to say that I am. I have been and also show that I am. I am a Christian woman, a disciple of Christ and I have a women's fellowship ministry where we gather together as women to dive deeper into the word of God, learn to apply the word to our lives, pray, encourage, empower, and fellowship with one another creating a safe space to be women of God working together to harvest the ripened fields. When I'm not in fellowship with the women I am trying to spread God's word any other way that I can. Seeing the signs that Jesus is coming soon I find it necessary to share on a daily basis. I'm not interested in what a person wears, habits a person has, or any hang ups that they may come with. I'm only interested in sharing with them that Jesus loves them and that he died so that they may have eternal life. Anything that they have that God doesn't want He will deal with that. I'm only a messenger sharing the love of Christ and the word of God. A lot of people spend too much time worrying about the wrong things, only God can change a person, we're to plant the seed, someone else will water and God will give the increase. We are not God and should never approach another as such. Treating a person differently because of the things that they do, how they look, or their outer appearance is not the way to share or show God's love. It's imperative that we share the truth and not our opinions because our opinions never matter, they never will. It's only the word of God that's going to help a person learn who Jesus is and what He did for them. Helping them learn to build their own personal relationship with God is what is needed to share with people, not how they're dressed, how they should talk, what they should put on or in their bodies, etc. We can't save or change anyone, that's God's job. We were also not called to save anyone, only to share the gospel and love of Jesus. Sure there are a lot of things wrong in the world today, but addressing them in the wrong manner will not help in any way. People have to be approached in love, even if when correcting someone it should be done in love, speaking the truth of the Bible should be done in love. If we are truly following Christ, we wouldn't have that problem, right? Right? Maybe a self check? Indeed! I hope you all have enjoyed this message, it's been on my heart awhile so I decided to share.Now the part I love, when I end a post I like to extend to everyone the invitation to accept Christ as your personal Lord and Savior. If this is you today, just recite this prayer:

Hey you all! I must say, I am yet again back at this blogging thing. You know it's work to be consistent. Especially when you have a full plate. Having been through things in life, changes, moves, and deaths, I had to rearrange a few pots on my burners and a few plates on my table. So now that I have done that I can breathe a little bit. I just want to share with you guys how I made it through all of this. Just to let you know I'm very much everywhere right now in my life so sharing with you is going to be showing you a lot of what I do during my week. So, I just want to welcome you guys back to my blog and hope you enjoy and get something out of everything that I share with you. I plan to be very transparent as I always am. The truth is the best way to tell things but not always the easiest to swallow, but in reality it helps shape a healthy person. With that said I'm going to close this post as I do on my other blog ~Ur Beauty 4 Ashes Women's Ministry Blog ~ with an invitation to make Jesus the Lord and Savior of your life. Time is drawing near and we all have to do somewhere when we leave this world. Why not make it Heaven?

Do you ever wonder if you have what it takes to make God proud? I do all the time. Let me tell you a little bit about what I mean. Some of us are saved and are not fulfilling our part of the call. It's not for us to debate this thing, we are commanded to go into all the earth after salvation and share the gospel to those who are lost. You are built for this. God knows our paths and no matter how we fight and try to stop His will, we are only going to slow down our own progressive path. God has a perfect and permissive will, why fall into the permissive will, when the perfect is so...well perfect. This post took a different turn and I'm just hoping that it goes where it needs. I'm a firm believer that God sends people to reach other people. So here I am. I didn't give my life to Christ to just sit around, go to church, and talk about it. I'm here to share and help anyone that wants to make the Lord Jesus Christ, their Lord and Savior. Time is truly short and I would rather spend it sharing the gospel with you all then trying to go viral with something silly or things that mean nothing really. So if you're asking questions like...who is God, why do I need to get saved, and what is salvation? Any question. Ask, please. I'm not a preacher, I'm a teacher, but I still know some of the answers to your questions. I'm a sinner saved by grace. Key word SAVED. You can be too.

I have a problem with people that can't and don't speak the truth. It's time for all of this stupidity, brainwashing, manipulation, and sugar coating the word to stop. If the word of God is not given out the way it is presented in the Bible, then it's no need to tell it. No one can profit from the truth spoken as a lie. "Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life." He said so in John 14:6. This is the scriptural proof that Jesus is the only way to Heaven. Many say otherwise, but it is simply not true. Time is getting closer to Jesus' return and without the proper knowledge, millions will miss out. "My people perish for the lack of knowledge." Hosea 4:6 . We can sometimes shadow the actions of the old testament books. The priests like some of our leaders today are not properly guiding their flocks. Thus contributing of the overall problem of the rejection of God's word. Leading to destruction. The way the world is operating today it is imperative that the right information goes out to those who believe and want to believe in Christ. This means Pastors and leaders must take a stand against the evil that is tainting the churches and speak the unadulterated truth of the Bible.

Hello ladies, I just thought I'd take the time to share some of my personal life with all of you. I'm going through a weight loss journey now. The last 2 years and life stresses have been tough on me. I gained a lot of weight due to my health issues. I was having a hard time getting around. I knew my knees were bad, but then my shoulders and my back had gotten worse too. So to the doctors office I went. I hate visiting the doctors. But I was sent to do X-rays and also an MRI. I found my knees had gotten worse and my right shoulder too. There are names for these ailments but I am not accepting the diagnosis of either. Being a devout Christian woman I know prayer can change things. But weight can make a person heavy so I do accept that I need to loose some weight. My goal is to lose 150 pounds. Yea...that's a lot of weight, and I can't move my arms and legs well. So I'm going to physical therapy. I like physical therapy, I'm learning about my muscles and that they are in places I never knew they were. So this journey is one I will keep you all updated on. Pray for me as I pray for you all. It's not so much the food. I can control my appetite it's the healthy eating part. I'm pretty busy and don't have time to cook everyday. Plus it takes longer to do so with my back. Any suggestions, I would gladly appreciate it. Please feel free to help a sister out ☺️. I'm trying to make a list to follow. I'm already a calendar, organized, kind of gal. I follow my daily calendar daily like clockwork. So slipping in cooking time could be a thing that I could do, but we will see. I hope you ladies and whoever else is reading this post is enjoying the content. I'm not a writer , or grammer expert, but I do expect to give content that will help you, and you help me in this time we share. I just want to be transparent and there for you all. Life is a big learning experience and we can all help one one another through it. I guess I will share I am down 13 pounds, woo hoo! Lots more to go but it's a great start.

These posts are going to be freeing for me but information for you. Sometimes as believers in Christ we can run into rivers, pools, even plain ocean waters. Unlike a lot of you, I can't swim. I have no intentions on learning. Guess we all know where this is going. So the majority of my Christian life I have trusted God pretty much. I have 3 beautiful sons, well handsome. Can I just be real transparent here on this blog. Boys and men are two very different names for this gender. I have three handsome men, and I love them all the same. But their lives are not mine to live. I had to really deal with that, and trust that God would have my best interest at heart. I had to realize that they have to learn to walk again on their own this time with Jesus and not mommy. This time just with their own faith and trust in God. Sure I can pray, but the bulk of their salvation depends on them. As a mother and nurturer, it was hard to watch them all go through things and develop in life into manhood. I am very happy and proud to say that God has indeed had my back. My sons each have their own relationship with God and although they are very different from mine, it's theirs and it's between them and God. I have to trust they are going to continue seeking Him for themselves. As I live and continue to be that example of a servant for the Lord, I know that is the blueprint to their foundation and structure in Jesus. I hope I have encouraged that mother to stay on the wall of prayer and be about God's business, because He will take care of yours if you take care of His. Time is drawing near and Jesus is soon to return. I hope everyone will head to that reality.        

When your life changes, sometimes it hurts. I personally don't like change. It makes me uncomfortable. I have had so many changes in my life the past 5 years. From all my boys being sick, me being sick, my husband being sick and passing and me being healed. Yes, I said healed, God healed me from diabetes in a year and 2 months. In my 20's He healed me from fibroid tumors, and in my 30's a nervous breakdown. I'm thankful and I know Him, as a healer. When my husband passed after a year and 5 months from throat cancer I just didn't get that one. I felt so confused. I felt like I was being punished, like a big weight had been put on my shoulders. I didn't realize it then. God had already prepared me for my husband's death, I know me as well as God does, I wasn't ready for the change. Prepared, but not ready. Doesn't make sense I know, but it too soon did. I didn't get a fighting chance to think and pray for cancer to leave. I was totally blindsided by my own unacceptable attitude. I cried, I was mad, yes, I was mad, at myself, and a little at God. I blamed myself, I fell into a light depression and I just stopped. Everything stopped. I'd cry at night and ask God, when will I be ok with this, because I'm trying and I can't wait until night time when everyone is asleep and no one is around to cry. Because I don't want anyone to know how I feel. I wondered how I got that way, and then I wouldn't allow myself to remember anything. Change. No more Tom, no more jokes, no more arguing, no more bible talk, no more people talking with him for what seemed like forever about the Lord, no more anything. We were in a good place, then a bad place, I felt I could have been nicer, better to him, I felt we were ok, we had made peace with each other, our marriage was right on track. Then this, I just wasn't ready, prepared, but not ready. Change.

So, I know I'm not your average, timely, clockwork, by the book, or rules blogger/ vlogger, but....I just do things by my own book. I am here to share with you guys and be very transparent and truthful. I must say, everything is so fast paced, and I feel like I need to hurry and get things done. Well, that doesn't fit into my lifestyle. So, with that being said, I must let you guys in on a little secret. I have been on a semi hiatus. I know, it sounds like a cop out or a simple hide out. But it's been a little over a year since I lost my husband. It still hurts, I'm still confused and I'm still in disbelief. But it is getting easier to understand. I can tell you, death of a spouse is something that you just can't jump into okaysville with. Any death for that matter. At least I can't, let me know if you know of anyone that can. We all will have a time where we will need to heal. It won't be the same time or thing, but it will be healing just the same. Change is a part of life as well. I don't like change, but I can't stop it from happening either. I find myself helping people and not even really setting out to. Guess it's in my DNA. Well just the same. If anyone out there is hurting for whatever reason, find a way to cope. My way is journaling, or talking to God. It's a great release for me and I always end up feeling a lot better. Sometimes I just cry. Crying is very therapeutic also, I spent a lot of time trying to appear strong when in fact I was weak. I was weak, I was hurting, I missed my husband, I didn't understand why I wasn't given time to even process his having cancer. I was angry, sad, confused and didn't know how to react or respond. I prayed until I fell asleep, I read the bible until I fell asleep, then I started sleeping less and less. I never talked to anyone about my feelings about my husband. I dare not, the truth would probably come out. That I was a hurting, confused wreck of a woman. I ate, but mostly I nibbled. I felt awful, I looked awful. I took no pride in my appearance and even less in life. Sure I could fool my family, they were easy. Except my son's, they were a little harder to fool. So I just worked extra hard around them. I had lost everything after my husband passed. I was let go from my job and told to "focus" on my health. So I was out of a job too. I stayed home, never went out unless I had to. Which was not often. I wasn't working anymore, so why bother. At night I would just cry and cry until I fell asleep. My eyes are naturally small so the next day the puffiness and smallness of them didn't raise any suspicions. Especially with glasses on. I watched church online and shopped online. This was going to work after all. Some days I was high on the spirit, others I was living in the valley. Holidays were the worst. I didn't celebrate Christmas for anything but that Jesus was born. Being that my father died the day after Christmas in 1998. So with my husband passing the day after Thanksgiving in 2022 that made it completely understandable to myself that I didn't care for the holidays and family gatherings.                                                                                                             

You know, a lot of people get down, depressed, feeling low. You know that feeling of defeat, the one that makes you feel like you just want to be alone, not talk to anyone, just hide from the world. Yea, that feeling. Well, I get that way a lot, and I find that music is my go to. Sometimes it's the bible reading to me on You Version, other times it's watching Pastor Myles and DeLanna Rutherford, Philip Anthony Mitchell or Pastor Tamera Bennett online. But my go to feel better, is music. I have a ton of faves, but situation songs are my medicine.